Deciding to be Confident
One of the reoccurring struggles I have had with grieving is mustering up enough confidence to process my loss with autonomy. What I mean is, to allow my inner animal to inform me as to how I want to process my loss. Grief can be processed through art, writing, performance, singing, dancing, filmmaking, volunteer work, talking, therapy, solitude, meditation, mindfulness, there are many choices as to how grief can be felt, observed, played with, and expressed. I don't want to be told which way is best for me, or that I am taking too long, or getting weird. I want to be confident and listen to myself. Even if I am terrified, I want to trust my creative process, lean into that inner darkness, wade through the thick pain of it, to discover my way through to wholeness, acceptance, and a beautiful life.